You Be the Anchor

Hey there,

I’m too damn forgiving, you know that? Well, of course you do. You hurt me so many god damned times, but every time I still forgave you because, as you used to let me know often, I’m stupid. Yeah, I admit it now. But I’ve changed. So for your birthday, I write you one last letter to tell you that you were right… about everything. I’m stupid, irrational, ugly, and overly-attached.

You were right about me. You knew me better than I ever even knew myself. What I wonder though is why, even after making it clear that you never cared about me, you made the effort to understand me so thoroughly? That’s rhetorical of course, I really don’t want to know. Looking back, I’m glad you understood how to hurt me so well. You made me better, you made me stronger emotionally… You formed who I am today: the best person and girlfriend that anyone could ask for. For that, I thank you.

I won’t go into the details, but finally and ironically thanks to you, I’m happy.

I will say that at times, I really do miss you… not as a boyfriend, but just as a friend.(actual boyfriend, don’t read into that. you know how i miss having my old friends). I look back and remember all the times that we spent together, and I realize how much fun that we used to have: biking to the beach with Chad, “Big Pimpin’” the pelican (which I’m sure you don’t remember), “I made a game with zombies in it,” playing Halo on forge (with my dying hundreds of times because you’re an asshole), youth at Stadium Vineyard (those damn game nights), Battle:LA when I saw you for the first time in awhile (and you laughed at me for crying at “you’re my little marine”)… There’s a lot to be happy about, and I don’t regret anything we did together.

If you’ve read this far, I’d be surprised. But if you have, just know this: No, I’m never going to come back, and I’ll probably never want to maintain a friendship with you ever again.

Happy (late) Birthday, __________. Take care of yourself, and most of all take care of your little sister. I love her so much, and I miss her more than words could ever even express. You have no idea what I wouldn’t give to see her again. Unfortunately, the same doesn’t go for you.

Marinna Krystine

To the asshole who thought it would be funny to remind me about his birthday: You’re a dick. It didn’t upset me like you thought it would, so fuck you.

To everyone else: The ex is probably never going to read this, and I don’t intend for him to. The point of posting this publicly is to let his friends know that I really am over everything. A lot of you don’t seem to believe me, and I don’t blame you. After going back to him so many times, I understand that it is hard to believe. There are a lot of things that were left unresolved, but I don’t let those things dictate my life anymore. I’ve found someone new that has completed my life. And when he finds someone new too, I wish him the best of luck. I just hope that if she’s better than me, he doesn’t push her away like he did to me.

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milliondollarwhore:

emilynoel:

Going to Florida tomorrow! Disney World, here we come ^___^

I’m so freaking jealous. I can’t wait to be back there next year…

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zoops:

THIS IS……….JUST BASED OFF WHAT IVE LEARNED OFF OF VARIOUS YOUTUBE VIDEOS…………………..

once i actually buy the game (which should be sometime this week idk) my views might change

ha

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